Journey So Far...

Two decades I have been in journey..
The journey that do not know the outcome..
I stopped myself, turning back..
Looking back the routes that I traveled..
Inspired myself
to be in deeply thinking of,
The worth of my journey..
So far....

In the past journey..

I walked down the street..

In the middle of crossroad..

I been struggled within myself..
Which intersections should I follow..

In my conscious mind..

That I knew about the path I traveled..
Between the dark and bright...

Acknowledge a wise man should know..
Which what course should he takes..
To the promise of happiness by the end of journey..

But in myself..
I made a decision in choosing that path..
The dark one most, the bright..
The hell I didn't knew how to describe
about the feeling in between..
"satisfaction" and "remorse"..
within myself..

Hard to describe..
That I know it was wrong..
 Lessons that taught me..
Sometimes curiosity can killed..
your heart in such a way..
you try to seek the truth..
that lies behind..

Yet, in this crucial journey..

to seeking the guidance..
I try to stand still on my own feet
To be like the pillars been anchored to the ground..
Because it is the
Its the secret key to confront the obstacles..
Even how many obstacles in front you...
Even it to hard to endure..
Even it tortured you..

I don't expect the readers to understand..

 The things I been talking..
Right now..

About a man tried to figured something..
That he can't stand it..
The path he taken..
Yet, he is the one who suffer alone..