Journey So Far...

Two decades I have been in journey..
The journey that do not know the outcome..
I stopped myself, turning back..
Looking back the routes that I traveled..
Inspired myself
to be in deeply thinking of,
The worth of my journey..
So far....

In the past journey..

I walked down the street..

In the middle of crossroad..

I been struggled within myself..
Which intersections should I follow..

In my conscious mind..

That I knew about the path I traveled..
Between the dark and bright...

Acknowledge a wise man should know..
Which what course should he takes..
To the promise of happiness by the end of journey..

But in myself..
I made a decision in choosing that path..
The dark one most, the bright..
The hell I didn't knew how to describe
about the feeling in between..
"satisfaction" and "remorse"..
within myself..

Hard to describe..
That I know it was wrong..
 Lessons that taught me..
Sometimes curiosity can killed..
your heart in such a way..
you try to seek the truth..
that lies behind..

Yet, in this crucial journey..

to seeking the guidance..
I try to stand still on my own feet
To be like the pillars been anchored to the ground..
Because it is the
Its the secret key to confront the obstacles..
Even how many obstacles in front you...
Even it to hard to endure..
Even it tortured you..

I don't expect the readers to understand..

 The things I been talking..
Right now..

About a man tried to figured something..
That he can't stand it..
The path he taken..
Yet, he is the one who suffer alone..

She's the one..

Welcome to my world..:-)

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Different ways of knowing. =)

source: http://telordibasuh.blogspot.com/2011/06/teori-yang-paling-tepat.html

The Journey as a friend...

In this long and lonely journey...

As I travel down the road...

I reach to a place where I can stay for awhile..

 The place where I saw many people..

Partially like me, partially don't...

I met them, I made relationship with them..

 We talked..We laughed..

About everything...

Get to know each other...

We shared...

Knowledges, experiences, advices..

 In order to gear up our weapons..

To travel for the next journey..

This place seem to be worth for me..

As I calmed in the inside..

  I got my peace of mind..

As all the pieces of troubles..  

Swept away by this "tides"..

Somehow...

I used to think I could get better..

Misunderstanding, conflict and hate..

In the middle..happened..

Somehow..

Many people always get it wrong..

Some of them used to..

Dominate..Dictate...Criticize..Condemn..

Others people right to choose..

For their freedom..

As they think they are right enough..

To suit theirs to others..

Soon they should get to know..

As all of life is a journey which paths we take..

What we look back on, and what we look forward is up to us..

We determine our destination, what kind of road we will take to get there,

As long as it right, and how we happy to get there..

 I wish people to realize..

About the "Discretion"..

Of what my father told me before I left..

The secrets that lies inside..

PRECIOUS..

Because, it tell you the meaning of..

The true relationship..

Is what we called FRIEND..

They came in many kinds...

As soon I realized that I should move on..

I have to say goodbye..

I wonder how this "friend" last forever..

And I know this is not the end..

I persuaded myself..

When the heart is intertwined..

Nothing can break it "fast"..

A song for Mama

"When you are a mother, you are never really alone in your thoughts. A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child."

I dedicated this song to my mother and all mothers around the world. I know everyday should be mother's day. But, today I want to express how much I care and love about you. Your deed cannot be repaid. Happy mother's day.

You taught me everything
Everything you've given me
I'll always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn't anything
Or anyone that I could be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were gray
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me

And no one else can be
What you have been to me you will always be
You will always be the girl
In my life for all times

Mama, Mama you know I love you
Mama, Mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like tears from the stars
Mama I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul
Yes it is, yes it is, oh, yes it is, yes it is, yes it is oh

You're always there for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did

And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me

You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on

There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me and say to me
I can face anything

And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be, you will always be
The girl in my life, ooh oh

Mama, Mama you know I love you
Mama, Mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like tears from the stars
Mama I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul

Never gonna go a day without you
Fills me up just thinkin' about you
I'll never go a day
Without my mama

Mama, Mama you know I love you
Mama, Mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like tears from the stars
Mama I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul

Lovin' you is like food to my soul, oh yeah
You are the food to my soul, yes you are

Just because I'm a traveller....

Everyday is a chance.........

Chance to change

Everyday is a chance............

Chance to live, to breath and to walk

Everyday is a chance............

To be what you need to be

To grab the rope

To follow the path.....

The choice

The chance that might come once.........

Every time it approach differently

It's like the background of the music
Whisper...

The song breath
While melody do the talking

The awaken...........

The journey of life

It is not the arrival matter

But the new way of seeing things

To the secret destinations

of which Traveller unaware

Because every single step taken

Worth of the thousand miles journey........

It's all because......

I am a traveller.....

note: this inspiration came to me at 5A.M

Around the corner....

Assalamualaikum,

Sekarang tengah pakai tenet kawan. Uia nyer internet are not available right now. Nak2, 2 minggu lagi nak exam. Idea tengah banyak tapi malas nak tulis. So, nak study la. Wish to all friends, strive for the success and best of luck in the final. :)

Naib Johan Memasak

       Last week 27/2, Geng Talam telah menyertai pertandingan memasak sempena IIUM Recreational Day. Pertandingan yang disertai oleh 5 group. 4 of them dari group sister dan 1 je group lelaki iaitu kami. =). Bile dah group lelaki dah tentu la kami ni "underdog" dalam competition ni. Lebih-lebih lagi 1 year just kiteorang je.

     

       Pertandingan memasak ni bukan sahaja dikire dari segi aspek masakan sahaja, dari segi aspek kebersihan, perhiasan dan presentation diambil kire. Bahan-bahan masakan pon datang "on the spot". Masa yang diberi 2 jam je.

      Dalam pertandingan ni, tema kami masakan atas gunung. Memang simple giler ar. Tapi chef kami agak kreatif pasal tiap2 ari keje dia memasak. Dapatla buat dalam 4 masakan. At the end the competition, lecturer dari Kulliyah Allied jadi juri. Da lah diorang dr dalam bidang diet .Huhu. Tapi, bile tengok masakan dari group sister yang lain. Masakan mereka lagi kreatif, banyak dan hidangan mereka pon cantik.

      Agak peliknya, bile umum keputusan, kami dapat naib johan. Sumpah time tu kiteorang menjerit. Bajet kalo menang pon tempat ke-3. Bile naib johan maknenya, kami dapat kalahkan 3 group sister yang lain.Gempak xgempak tu. huhu
Sampai group 4 year yang menang tempat ke-3 tu pon mengeluh sebab kalah dengan kami. Tapi bile fikir-fikir balik, ni memang berkat kami sekumpulan. Bukan sahaja presentation kami kepada juri yang sangat yakin tetapi berkat hidup mengamalkan sunnah Rasulullah s.a.w. Memang benda tu kecil, tapi dilakukan tiap-tiap hari makan berjemaah. =) So, tu jela nak story. Kejayaan bukan milik kita sorang je. Kejayaan sebagai satu group. Geng Talam.



masakan-masakan kami.=) simple je kan. Tapi rase memang marvelous. Sepatutnya, dalam pertandingan memasak. Makanan yang dimasak perlu dijadikan sample untuk orang lain merasa. Group kami tak sempat dijadikan sample, kami dah hapuskan semua bahan bukti.hahaha =P

tema masakan " atas gunung"

Gunung Stong

Puncak Ayam

yang ni xtau nak bagi name ape...

 

Geng Talam

Mount Stong: The First Expedition

Participants

Mount expedition is the best experience I ever had. That was first time of my life went for an adventurous camping trip to mountain. Quite a successful job for the beginners with less preparation for fitness and tools. Memang pakai redah je!! =)

Mount Stong which located in Dabong, Kelantan and 1422 m above the sea level. The first day a little bit challenging as we travel to the Baha's Camp site which take about 2 hours to reach there with the assistance knowledgeable guides. With the burden on our shoulder, carrying all the equipments, tools, and food for camping which already weary us. But, the magnificent of the nature caught our eye, make us forgot about the weariness. Really beautiful the scenery up there. Can't explained by word. =)

Before arrived at Baha's Camp

Baha's Camp site was the pit stop for us before continue to travel Mount Stong. There was a field that fit the space for us to build up tents and ground sheets and nearly to river bank. Besides, I learned this sort of technical things. Helped by my teammate Adha, Kema and Syukur. Yang best diorang suma kepala gilerr. Memang masok dengan aku. First day quite a relaxing day for us to regenerate energy for tomorrow.






Next day, we gathered at 9 a.m then started for the expedition. The expedition begins......

Like crawling in the jungle. Slow and steady. Neither fast nor slow. Moderate. Me and Kecik non-stop talking and making joke each other and sempat je buat dajal kat akak-akak kat depan. Haha. They all layan je. =)
Even penat pon boleh lupe. Besides, we helped our friends who already weary and give them motivations.
Until..................................

Dah sampai.....memang cantik sungguh pemandangan atas gunung..Undescribable feeling....

 

siap ade tupai lagi..jinak plak tu..

  

candid!!!!!!

 

 

 

My teammate

adha dan pok cek

Banyak lagi gambar-gambar nak upload. Seriously, memang best. That is not just an experience solely promoted to you. There are many values and lessons that you learned during the expedition.

1) Sabar is the most important in your life. It teach you, to obtain something is not easy and you need to be patience.
2) Throw away your ego, ego would bring you to selfishness. Selfishness brings you harm.
3) Help and motivate people who not as strong as you.
4) Be optimistic with your surrounding.
5) Love the nature, nature is the only heritage that God give us.

Lastly, you must know that within you there is a limit that you didn't know. You need to believe in yourself. Never give up. =)

note: This is what I can write for now, a little bit messy I know.

A lucky number...Algebra (x_x)

YOU HAVE FAILED!!!!!!!!!!!

Memang tidak disangka-sangkakan melihat result yang nombornya sangatlah bertuah. Nombor paling diminati oleh kaum Cina. Nombor "Ong" nyer. Ini memang dikatakan sejarah paling terbaik dalam hidup dapat satu digit angka je dalam exam. Adoiyai!!! Lari pulak prediction aku. huhuhu. Bajet sudah salah. Algebra oh algebra....Jesni pulak cakap dia tak boleh percaya. Jangan cakap dia je tak caye, aku lagi la tak caye. Ape yang boleh dibuat sekarang??? Gelak dan tersenyum je yang paling termampu. Nak cerita banyak pon dah tak gune. huhu

Inilah keadaan yang boleh dianalogikan macam kita melalui satu jalan, di kanan dan kiri ada lereng yang sangat curam. Nak patah balik tak boleh. 

So, we have to move on no matter what happened. If fail in the final just take another semester. Cgpa? Not my main concern honestly. Let it be. I just wanna to try out. Feel the lose is better than victory. It will develop you to become somebody one day..somebody...somebody..somebody..

Through my way of belief....

Bila satu je nikmat Tuhan bagi kene tarik....

Huh.....terrible...terrible...terrible...horrible....

Hard to describe.....

I'm dying.....

It getting worse.....

Where should I ask for a help...

It getting worse...

How to face it everyday.....

It really affect my  life....

And I don't know how, when they get started...

I really want to...

But it felt like a fucking devil bite my eyelid

To let it open...widely

Ohhhh..I want it back...

Please.....give it to me back dear God...

The felt of loosing it..

The anxiety that surge me..

It's so depressing...huh

It's hard to tell....

The grace that YOU gave...

It is really the precious one..

Ya Allah...

Could You please give me a chance...

I will use it wisely..

Please give me back...

The grace....

To sleep...

Top Shot season 1: anatomy of the shot

MUST WATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The first round of the final episode of the Top Shot. J.J Racaza been eliminated in the challenge. There is no Kelly..:-(

Final challenge was quite interesting. They tested the shooters with various kind of weapons that they had been handled since the first episode. Sees who's the winner. Is it Ian or Chris ???? Must Watch!!! :-)

~Dan Ku Lihat Keagungan Tuhan~

Assalamualaikum w.r.b.t...

Today was quite relaxing day for me as I skipped class from morning until afternoon :D and this is the second time skip assignment for UNGS class. It hard to get up from bed and I'm not feeling very well. Headache all around me. Later, Afiq sent me a massage about going to Pandan Waterfall after zuhur. I doubted about to go there since the weather not seem convincing yet still I'm not in the mood. However, demi tak nak kecewakan kawan still manage to go there after dah selesai masak-masak semua oleh chef acap. Then, berangkatlah kami dengan kereta namanya haiwan itu. Rent car. :-)

"Dan Ku Lihat Keagungan Tuhan"...................................................That was the starting point. After through all the pain I had before. I'm find the great thing that make peace in me. I found someplace that relieve and remind me.......You know what it is?

So beautiful..Isn't it???? :-) Praise your Lord..Subhanallah

At the first sight, I stop my step and see the waterfall running down heavily. I been quiet for awhile sambil tengok budak2 ni mandi and jadi cameraman. Sumpah tengok diorang happy gile.

nampak x diorg kat tepi..letak diorg jauh sket..nanti nampak..:p

Break sekejap..lapar...lunch tak makan lagi..huhu. Pastu sambung balik.

Makan talam bersama kat tepi air terjun berkuahkan hujan..:p

I really love the nature because it is semula jadi kan. :-) Not from human creation. It is Allah creation. For me, nature inspire us to ask who create them. When you really near the nature and you will sense something not usual. Your feeling. Try and you will know it. Al-Quran have said about it also.Already proven.

I liked that feeling.since I been in so many troubles before and really hurt much. I always try my best to be nice and honest to people, yet in the end I'm the who get hurt. I am a man and I have dignity. I know I'm not good at delivered what I wanted to say.huh. I really cannot accept the way they talk to me. When someone ask nicely, just talk wisely. Even your rough decision, I still can accept that.

But, main point here is I feel so relieve when I see such beautiful waterfall and tengok budak2 buat stunt yang agak bahaya. Nice show kid. I hope today's experience become the starting point to be the best person that I always wanted to be. Thanks to Kecik, Zahid, Acap and Afiq a.k.a "Geng Talam" for bringing me there. Lepas ni Family Day Cts 101 buat kat sane. I don't want to miss it. YAHA. "Dan Disitulah Ku Lihat Keagungan Tuhan".

cantik giler la huwoii...

Journey of Life

Journey already begin..

I already take a new footstep to become a successful person in my life. I realize this time is the only the opportunity for me and I will never waste every single of it. I’m on the right track which my dream child is to become a mathematician. Do you know, mathematic is not something that you just need to count. Some people the misunderstood about mathematics. They said that mathematics is just a method or a tool to count money or to answer mathematical question. No!!

Mathematics teaches you how to live right. By coincidently, it trains you to stand right in the lustful world. The worldview that mathematics brings you is very different than the usual people. Basically, learning mathematics trains your critical thinking. It helps you to thinks critically and creatively in your personal life and work.

Unconsciously, I learn how the mind of the mathematician scholars, how they can create theories and formulas. This is the way to lead me to close to them. How great they were during their era besides their contribution to the world.

So, I want to be part of them to. Right now and right here, it is the fundamental step for me to step far higher…..gotta go..good luck for me..

John Winchester, 20/7/10